Love Letter For mouse

Dear daddy, What's meant to be will always find a way. I wanted to the tell you about my feelings in person but then I thought how much more personal it would be to put them down in a letter. It might seem old fashioned, but there is something special about the written word - somehow it seems a little more permanent and meaningful.

There are many things that I have been meaning to say to you but just haven't found the words until now. I feel that I took our relationship for granted and i wish i could change the past.. I decided put down these words because I miss your voice, the way you smile, the way you held me and oddly enough the way we argued. I miss everything about you. Im sorry for ruining us the way i did.. I was recently thinking of you at when i lay our son down to sleep, I remember the famous bbq's we used to have on the summer evenings. Ppl would climb out of our little one bedroom house as if it were a clown car. Those were your words if i do recall. Or the time u took me to meet the girls, that whole summer is a prized memory i will cherish forever. But i have to say my favorite thoughts that come to mind are when you would jam out either in the car the house or where ever we tend to be at the time. I downloaded all the songs you played for me or sang to me or just jammed out to period. My playlist is so long now. And every night when i lay your son down to sleep i look at him and think of you. Memories ooo memories, how i love these sweet memories!. Your the song "omaha" makes me feel Like i am back in the car with you and i feel at ease for a breif moment..

I understand that you have been facing some significant challenges lately such as I know that being in prison has been hard especially since its ment being away from those you care most about, and missing the birth of your son. And it only made things harder when i ended things the way i did, i was so lost and confused and broken inside. I didnt know that all along what i needed was you. , and that this would be making you feel You were mis guided by me and i want to show you know just how sorry i am.. My recent challenging I have been missing you inside my head and heart for so long, before even your mom knew, i didnt know how she would react. Your son having many health problems that drs cant figure out, many lives lost since youve gone away, almost my own at gods will not mine. They were all challenges i could of handled better if you were around. has left me feeling misserable, and I do not want this to have any impact on our relationship. Whilst we have had our challenges I am looking foward to the future, and experiencing The life we almost had, minus the trouble we kept getting in, i wont have any more of that! together. Love mouse