Love Letter For Nikkie

Dear Matthew, What's meant to be will always find a way. I wanted to the tell you about my feelings in person but then I thought how much more personal it would be to put them down in a letter. It might seem old fashioned, but there is something special about the written word - somehow it seems a little more permanent and meaningful.

There are many things that I have been meaning to say to you but just haven't found the words until now. I feel that I am ready to do absolutely everything Necessary to be the wife you want and deserve. I know it will take time to get to a place where you can fully trust me, but I am fully devoted to being honest and transparent in every way so that you can put all of your trust in me when that time comes.. I decided put down these words because To tell you how much I want our marriage and how devoted and committed I am to making this work.

. I was recently thinking of you at looking at my clothes for the day, I was deciding what to wear and realized I was naturally picking a different clothes wanting to represent something different, something better than i have been the last 10 months. I qas naturally transforming to being the wife i desperately want to be....one that makes you happy and one that makes you proud. It was then that i realized just how true i know my love is for you, because all of my decisoons from here on out wont be made from my mind because Thats what you want from me, they will be made from my heart and it won't be a decision at all it will just be doing what is right and true because it will know no other way.. Your your beautiful perfect face, your sweet kisses and how at home i feel when I'm in your arms. makes me feel Like I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Like I am complete and nothing in the world can harm me..

I understand that you have been facing some significant challenges lately such as Adjusting to the transition between prison and this intermediate time when you have to make major decisions regarding your future. , and that this would be making you feel You had to protect your heart while we were apart and it is taking courage for you to let me back in

. My recent challenging Spent 10 months nursing a broken heart, trying to figure out what life means with half of it missing. I have struggled with isolation in incarceration and in freedom, and I have had to find my way through trial and, most often, error. has left me feeling so desperate for your strength that in times I've been certain i wouldn't be able to move on without it., and I do not want this to have any impact on our relationship. Whilst we have had our challenges I am looking foward to the future, and experiencing A healthy marriage and most importantly, a friendship that leaves us without doubt that we have a hand to hold when we reach for one, a shoulder to leam on when our knees are weak, and that our joy can be doubled and our sorrows cut in half. together. Love Nikkie