Love Letter For mariea

Dear Richie, Love is when you look into someone's eyes and go all the way inside; to their soul and you both know... instantly! I wanted to the tell you about my feelings in person but then I thought how much more personal it would be to put them down in a letter. It might seem old fashioned, but there is something special about the written word - somehow it seems a little more permanent and meaningful.

There are many things that I have been meaning to say to you but just haven't found the words until now. I feel that we do love each other deep down inside, but we have said so many awful things to each other when were fighting that both of us have become bitter. This has to stop. Youve hurt me mentally and physically. I dont even know who I am anymore I feel lost not happy and protected like a husband is supposed to make his wife feel. I decided put down these words because We used to be so happy together. All we do is fight anymore. I feel like I have lost you both mentally and emotional. Im not even sure if you really still care. All I want is for us to be happy like in the beginning. Some how you dont seem like the same person I met.. I was thinking of you in bed last night, I thought about last summer all the great times we've had and how happy we were in the beginning. How happy you were in our wedding pictures. How welcoming your family was to me. How im scared that im gonna loose you but dont have it in me to tell you how I really feel.. Your beautiful blue eyes makes me feel Safe, loved and speechless.

I understand that you have been facing some significant challenges lately such as this winter has been a struggle for us but it was our strength and love as husband and wife, that got us threw it and I know sometimes im hard to deal with., and you feel Im not always the happiest person and that I am to blame for some of our fights but, when you physically pit ur hands on me as ur wife it only pushes me away. I feel betrayed at this point. Ive never felt so alone.. ive been going through a lot with this addiction and yes maybe I have changed. The names that youve called me have truely put a scar on my heart. How could you let me down this way. I thought you as a husband would treat me like im am ur equal were supposed to be partners in life. I do not equal I feel low, sad, and scared of you. Somehow some way i hope that we can find it in both of our hearts to forgive eachother and begin to rebuild eachother up to where we used to be in our marriage.This has left me feeling angry, and heart broken and I do not want this to have any impact on our relationship. Whilst we have had our challenges I am looking foward to the future, and experiencing Our company and our new home together. Love mariea