Dear Christopher, What's meant to be will always find a way. I want to tell you about my feelings every time I have a feeling or thought. then I thought how much more personal it would be to put them down in a letter. It might seem old fashioned, but there is something special about the written word - somehow it seems a little more permanent and meaningful.
There are many things that I have been meaning to say to you but just haven't found the words until now. I know that I want to be with you for the rest of my life no matter what and we are going to get married sooner than you think. I decided to put down these words because I love you and i don't know what I will do without my you and I miss you dearly we haven't seen each other in 3 long years. . I was recently thinking of you at home in the tub, being in the car from day to night around the first time we met, sleeping in the car talking, laughing and speaking about the future. that's when you told me I was gone be your wife , remember . Your big beautiful smile and controlling way makes me feel soothing and warm inside until the controlling issues start then I just get confused .
I understand that you have been facing some significant challenges lately such as being locked down in prison , and that this would be making you feel hurt and disappointed because I know I'm supposed to be there for you and not seeing your kids can be really disturbing to you. . My recent challenging experiencing a lot of pain inside, experiencing a lot drama and b.s just have been experiencing a lot.of mixed emotions without you being around. has left me feeling sometime scared, lost, and alone, and I do not want this to have any impact on our relationship. Whilst we have had our challenges I am looking foward to the future, and experiencing making this thing called love last forever and being the woman you deserve that I have not been lately to you at all together. Love Fantasia 
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