Dear terry, Love is an emotion experienced by the many and enjoyed by the few. I wanted to the tell you about my feelings in person but then I thought how much more personal it would be to put them down in a letter. It might seem old fashioned, but there is something special about the written word - somehow it seems a little more permanent and meaningful.
There are many things that I have been meaning to say to you but just haven't found the words until now. I feel that I feel I've not been fair about who you are and how i have treated you, I've been overly sensitive and highly irrational about your general friendliness.. I decided put down these words because Because I've fallen madly in love with you, "again"!. I was recently thinking of you at in the walmart parking lot, i missed our life in the blue house., My life is about Terry, it revolves around my Terry, i can't get you out of my head, i fear I'm too invoved and too intense for fear of losing you would be to lose me too. I can't lose you, you are my life, i love you, every part of you, i cannot love another no matter what, i know this about me, so i want you to stay healthy babe.. Your you make my heart flutter and my knees weak! makes me feel Warm, safe, full, connected, happy, giddy, .
I understand that you have been facing some significant challenges lately such as I'm sorry you're so stressed with money, or the lack thereof, and i feel very responsible about your stess level, I've agitated you almost daily and i regret that I've stresssed you badly, and it has affected you in such a way that I've pushed you away, not pushed you to like me as i wish, I'm so darn crazy in love with you i can't stand myself nor can anyone stand me, i can't blame them or you either., and that this would be making you feel I understand the economy predicts your workload and that you have to go where there is work, it is hard for you i know, and i can't help but be concerned about you and your health right now, i feel your sleeping is . My recent challenging I have let my frustrations run me wild with worry about whether you really like me, my fears have made me push your buttons as if in attempting to see just how far i could push you and you'd still love me and want me, this stems i know from being abandoned by my father and my mother telling us it's our fault he left, and the other six husbands too, we were dealt such horrific guilt and punishment for their mistakes, it was wrong but that's just how my mom dealt with it. So i have severe abandonment issues as a result, the good thing is i understand my underlying issues, now i just need to deal with it all. has left me feeling i get insanely jealous and push you away, i know I'm not thinking logically when i get so jealous, I'm so sorry I've hurt you baby., and I do not want this to have any impact on our relationship. Whilst we have had our challenges I am looking foward to the future, and experiencing I want to travel, and experience new friendships, new towns, good food new restaurants, new diners, i want to travel to alaska with you and to the far ends of the earth but all the while playing n laughing n knowing I'd be just as happy in our own backyard or camper or trailer or whatever cuz i just love my Terry and that's all i want and need. together. Love Kat 
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