Dear lovebug, Love is an emotion experienced by the many and enjoyed by the few. I wanted to the tell you about my feelings in person but then I thought how much more personal it would be to put them down in a letter. It might seem old fashioned, but there is something special about the written word - somehow it seems a little more permanent and meaningful.
There are many things that I have been meaning to say to you but just haven't found the words until now. I feel that we should of just stayed friends and nothing more. I decided to put down these words because The sad part is that we could never be back together because of what you did to me. I never loved someone so much in my entire life. I wish it never happened. I sit and think about you a lot and I wonder when will I ever just get over it.. I was recently thinking of you in my room, I thought about all the fun times but thats all they were. The relationship was never going to grow into anything. You were holding me from becoming a better person. I picked up bad habits and the ones around me noticed. I was so in love I couldn't see how dumb I really was. I was being played and was too blind to see. I thought I could change you but the love I had for you wasn't strong enough. The drugs were your lover and I was an innocent by stander who got wrapped up in a big mess of lies.. My love for you made me feel alive for the first time.
I understand that you have been facing some significant challenges such as Getting over your ex, and that this would be making you feel like Its not easy getting over her but you should of been honest with me instead of me finding out the hard way.. My recent challenges is that having a hard time trusting someone has left me feeling like I will get hurt again, and I do not want this to have any impact on any future relationships. While we have had our challenges I am looking foward to the future, and experiencing Nothing with you. I have to learn to get over it by myself. Love Trinalove 
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