Dear Babe, What's meant to be will always find a way. I wanted to tell you about my feelings in person but then I thought how much more personal it would be to put them down in a letter. It might seem old fashioned, but there is something special about the written word - somehow it seems a little more permanent and meaningful.
There are many things that I have been meaning to say to you but just haven't found the words until now. I feel that we have something truly special. Of course, with any relationship, we could use some work. But I'd rather be WITH you working through our "age gap" of differences, instead of being APART and working alone to mend a broken and lonely heart.. I decided to put down these words because I know we disagree at times but that will never change the love I feel for you. I was recently thinking of you when we was at the casino. I caught myself watching you from my machine. I felt good that night, even though it didn't start out the best. And besides us being almost the same height that night, I had a blast. One for the books of good memories. The food, the room, the balcony, you and Jenni taking pictures, it was all a great night. I'm thankful your parents are such good people. Best part was falling asleep in your arms on the way home. I love you so much John.. Your loveable smile and silly laugh leaves me breathtaken in the moment.
I understand that you have been facing some significant challenges lately such as being busy with work and everyone else bugging you for "stuff", I try to make myself more understanding when there's not a lot of "US" time. And I know I'm not always the easiest person to get along with, and that this would be making you feel like you might want to get away at times, but that's when I want you to open up the most. I want you to be able to be vulnerable in front of me. You don't know how frustrating it is to see someone you care about only show a few different emotions.. My recent challenges have been dealing with myself. Struggling with my thoughts or better yet my over-exaggerated imagination. It leaves me felling so tired. I know you think I dont do much, which I can't deny completely, but everything that goes on up there wears me out feels like. And I do not want this to have any impact on our relationship. While we have had our challenges I am looking forward to the future, and experiencing more with you. We need a date night. We've tried this before but we should stick to it. I think it would benefit us over time. Pick a day or night just for us. Every week or two weeks. Even if its just a movie night at home cuddled up . Just us, Together.. Love, Your Girlfriend Always <3
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